`` I could use some help '', Morgan said finally, `` but I can't afford to pay you anything.

`` I made you so you could stand up.

I could see them in my sights.

Far up the valley I could see the Rees circling and reorganizing.

I could see their faces glistening with sweat and bear grease, their mouths open, shouting their spine-chilling cries.

I could see the blood running down his chest.

I could smell woodsmoke, grease, and oil.

Now under me I could see him for what he really was, a boy dressed up in streaks of paint.

Since they could see me but I not them, their presence in the hall disturbed me.

) hung on a hook on the wall, and underneath it I could see his tie, knotted, ready to be slipped over his head, a black badge of frayed respectability that ought never to have left his neck.

They, and the two large fans which I could dimly see as daylight filtered through their vents, down at the far end of the hall, could be turned on by a master switch situated inside the office.

For although I had crossed a corner of the hall on my way to the toilet I still could not tell for sure how far to the rear the darkness extended.

I could observe the two fans down at the end, but their size in themselves meant nothing to me as long as I had no measure of comparison.

I knew that three or four of them were almost always present in the hall, but what they were doing, and exactly where, I could not tell.

I could not cling to my past nor did I wish to.

When I asked him what, if anything, I could do about it, he surprised me by referring me to the director of the hall.

I could consult this personage on any weekday morning, though not before ten o'clock.

Although it was dark as usual I could see that the hall had only recently contained a great many people.

The charge, I tell you ''!!

I almost didn't tell you ''.

`` I want to tell you something Thomas DeMontez Lord.

`` I really do have something important to tell you, Mr. Scott.

If you tell him I made a pass at you he might think you misunderstood something I said or did, so instead of just telling him I made a pass, say I tried to date you and that you agreed so you could prove to him what a louse I really am.

And I will greatly appreciate it if you will not tell your husband.

But when it happens to you like that, I tell you, and you're a hundred feet from where you thought you were -- well, it makes you think.

If the old fool argues about the price, tell him I shall order my husband not to treat him as a patient any longer.

Said: `` There are things I must tell you about this man you are marrying which he does not know himself ''.

I fled, however, not from what might have been the natural fear of being unable to disguise from you that the things about my bridegroom -- in the sense you meant the word `` things '' -- which you had been galvanizing yourself to tell me as a painful part of your maternal duty were things which I had already insisted upon finding out for myself ( despite, I may now say, the unspeakable awkwardness of making the discovery on principle, yes, on principle, and in cold blood ) because I was resolved, as a modern woman, not to be a mollycoddle waiting for Life but to seize Life by the throat.

`` I've been in government and I can tell some pretty hairy stories about personnel difficulties, so I know what a problem he was ''.

`` I can tell you this much '', he said.

I shall tell of it later on.

My God, how long is he going to wait, I thought.

This impressed me, until I realized how limited was his sphere of influence.

When one of the men in the hall behind us spat on the floor and scraped his boot over the gob of spittle I noticed how the clerk winced.

By counting the number of stalls and urinals I attempted to form a loose estimate of how many men the hall would hold at one time.

I understand how you feel about the child.

`` Might get there faster walkin' '', Lord drawled, `` seein' as how I got a busted front spring.

`` I heard how you outdrew Chico.

How lightly her `` eventshah-leh '' passed into the crannies where I was storing dialect material for some vaguely dreamed opus, and how the word would echo.

I remembered, too, the jesting voice of a classmate, Bobby Pauson: `` But how do they reproduce, Dr. Griggs??

Hell, I gave him the first decent job he ever had, six, seven -- how many years ago was it, Rob ''??

`` By observing the conductor '', he says with a twinkle in his eyes, `` I learned how not to conduct ''.

Since he introduces so much modern music, I could not resist asking how he felt about it.

I think it is essential, however, to pinpoint here the difference between the two concepts of sovereignty that went to war in 1861 -- if only to see better how imperative is our need today to clarify completely our far worse confusion on this subject.

Once, then -- for how many years or how few does not matter -- my world was bound round by fences, when I was too small to reach the apple tree bough, to twist my knee over it and pull myself up.

A useful comment on his relation to his region may be made, I think, by noting briefly how in handling Southern materials and Southern problems he has deviated from the pattern set by other Southern authors while remaining faithful to the essential character of the region.

But I can see from this latest trick of memory how much more arbitrary and influential it is than the will.

When I speak of how Shann felt, I know well.

`` I care not how soon we reach Calcutta, and are placed in a still room, with a bowl of milk and a loaf of Indian bread.

Even Harriet could boldly write, `` I know not how it is ; ;

No matter how large the fire, I couldn't seem to shake off the chill that day.

But if you are able & care to come, you know how glad I shall be.