`` That was a terrible thing to do '', I said to Oso.

`` But that was war '', I said.

Still, I was disgusted with myself for agreeing with Montero's methods.

In the brief moment I had to talk to them before I took my post on the ring of defenses, I indicated I was sickened by the methods men employed to live and trade on the river.

Next to him was a young boy I was sure had sat near me at one of the trading sessions.

Now under me I could see him for what he really was, a boy dressed up in streaks of paint.

Such was my state of mind that I did not question the possibility of this ; ;

under the circumstances I was only too willing to confess all.

I was nearly thirty at the time.

It was dark and, I sensed, very large ; ;

Sometimes I was aware of people moving about in the darkness.

This impressed me, until I realized how limited was his sphere of influence.

I felt certain he was really a spineless little man.

Once, pressing him, I learned that his job was only part-time, in the afternoons when nothing went on in the hall.

In the mornings, I was informed, fluorescent tubes, similar to the one above the counter, illuminated the entire hall.

I was shown, instead, a batch of white tickets of the sort handed out, he told me, every morning.

Now, here was something of obvious importance to me, yet when I reached for the tickets he snatched them away from my hand.

It was, I felt, possible that they were men who, having received no tickets for that day, had remained in the hall, to sleep perhaps, in the corners farthest removed from the counter with its overhead light.

I felt certain it was self-appointed.

I decided to see no more of the clerk until the processing of my papers was completed.

I was constantly searching for clues around the neighborhood of the hall.

`` I mean, we don't have any way to get there and we can't expect you to quit work just to take us to town ''.

I just can't take any chances on getting her pregnant, and if we were sleeping together ''

I was at once disappointed, although just what I had expected him to look like I could not have explained.

I just do what I'm told, and '' --

I was just doing my job, just following orders, and for that he's going to kill me.

But there's one thing I never seen or heard of, one thing I just don't think there is, and that's a sportin' way o' killin' a man ''!!

I just want you to take a message to Diane Molinari.

Couldn't I just '' -- His voice trailed off into silence.

I just wanted to hear you say so ''.

I seized the rack and made a western-style flying-mount just in time, one of my knees mercifully landing on my duffel bag -- and merely wrecking my camera, I was to discover later -- my other knee landing on the slivery truck floor boards and -- but this is no medical report.

I ducked just as the first strand broke somewhere down the line and came whipping over the sideboards.

I saw Johnson's bottle snatched from his hand, saw it go in a swirl of foam just behind the second car.

`` So I just scooted out of his clutches.

I was so scared well, I just ran to my car and came here ''.

I didn't get a good look at him at all, his back was to me, and I was so scared It was just somebody in a man's suit.

The rest of the time I devoted to painting or to those other activities a young and healthy man just out of college finds interesting.

If you tell him I made a pass at you he might think you misunderstood something I said or did, so instead of just telling him I made a pass, say I tried to date you and that you agreed so you could prove to him what a louse I really am.

I became disgusted at being so preoccupied with the state of my own miserable soul.

The moment I walked in, the whole miserable feeling of the day seemed to focus on the woman in the bed.

I was miserable — I just didn't have the extra energy to be happy.

However this did not make Reynolds happy, as he wrote to Boswell: " If I had known what a shabby miserable place it is, I would not have asked for it ; besides as things have turned out I think a certain person is not worth speaking to, nor speaking of ", presumably meaning the King.

Reynolds wrote to Jonathan Shipley, Bishop of St Asaph, a few weeks later: " Your Lordship congratulation on my succeeding Mr. Ramsay I take very kindly but it is a most miserable office, it is reduced from two hundred to thirty-eight pounds per annum, the Kings Rat catcher I believe is a better place, and I am to be paid only a fourth part of what I have from other people, so that the Portraits of their Majesties are not likely to be better done now, than they used to be, I should be ruined if I was to paint them myself ".

He stated that " years ago I was doing a TV movie called Emergency Room and it was a fairly miserable experience.

Part I opens with Christine reading from Matheolus ’ s Lamentations, a work from the thirteenth century that addresses marriage wherein the author writes that women make men ’ s lives miserable. Upon reading these words, Christine becomes upset and feels ashamed to be a woman: “ This thought inspired such a great sense of disgust and sadness in me that I began to despise myself and the whole of my sex as an aberration in nature ”.

“ I was 17, a married woman without real responsibilities, miserable about my mixed-up emotions, afraid there was something awfully wrong with me because I didn ’ t enjoy being a wife.

" I can complain that by the way we could scarce see a dog, crow, kite, raven or any other bird, or anything to anatomize, only some few miserable people, the relics of the war and the plague where famine had made anatomies before I came.

But service under Warwick ( by now the Duke of Northumberland ) carried some risk, and decades later in his diary, Cecil recorded his release in the phrase " ex misero aulico factus liber et mei juris " (" I was freed from this miserable court ").

For the downbeat tone of the novel, Adams blamed personal problems, saying " for all sorts of personal reasons I don't want to go into, I just had a thoroughly miserable year, and I was trying to write a book against that background.