This desire, I went on, growing voluble as my conviction was aroused, had mounted at such a rate recently that I now found its realization necessary not only to my physical but also to my spiritual wellbeing.

I think that we are here also talking of the kind of fear that a young boy has for a group of boys who are approaching at night along the streets of a large city.

And if I have gone into so much detail about so small a work, that is because it is also so typical a work, representing the germinal form of a conflict which remains essential in Mann's writing: the crude sketch of Piepsam contains, in its critical, destructive and self-destructive tendencies, much that is enlarged and illuminated in the figures of, for instance, Naphta and Leverkuhn.

Our Northern brethren also I believe felt a little tender under those censures ; ;

Helion, however, clung to the belief that `` in escaping from the Stalag I had also escaped from Abstraction ''.

Mr. Burlingham, -- `` C.C.B. '' -- wrote to me once about an old friend of mine, S. K. Ratcliffe, whom I had first met in London in 1914 and who also came out for a week-end in Weston.

Of course I hope Hal can also, but those hopes are much more faint ''.

But I will also remind them that I have always been inclined to skepticism, to a kind of Laodicean lack of commitment so far as public affairs are concerned ; ;

Without really changing the general subject, I take this opportunity to confess that I am troubled by doubts, not only about pacifism, but also when asked to join in the protest against a law that most of those who consider themselves humane and liberal seem to regard as obviously barbarous ; ;

I also had and have feelings about Garibaldi.

but I am also a young, able and willing girl who wants to study the Chinese language but is not old enough.

But I questioned, also, professional soldiers, who would not easily be hypnotized by a septuagenarian's dreamy irredentism.

But it seems that pressures against him are coming from somewhere -- in the first place from China, but perhaps also from that `` China Lobby '' which, I was assured in Moscow nearly two years ago, exists on the quiet inside the party.

I will also be underpaid.

I have done all this for the freedom of the individuals concerned and also for the states which have been threatened by Communist domination.

It also happened with the Inauguration, which was not re-run at all during the evening hours, and I wrote to the TV editor of the Times.

I know that I myself felt that it was a mortal shame for a man to be torn open by a British musket ball, as Isaac had been, yet I also felt relieved and lucky that it had been him and not myself.

I am also pleased to note that Mr. John B. Oakes, a member of the Times staff since 1946, has been appointed as editorial page editor.

I think we need to concern ourselves also with the timeliness of action.

I would turn away from my writing in the hope of getting a good look at them but I never quite succeeded.

Suddenly a treble auto horn tootley-toot-tootled, and, thumbing hopefully, I saw emergent in windshield flash: red lips, streaming silk of blonde hair and -- ah, trembling confusion of hope, apprehension, despair -- the leering face of old Herry.

A man must be able to say, `` Father, I have sinned '', or there is no hope for him.

I left behind me brave men, whom captivity had robbed of all hope.

While my memory holds with relentless tenacity, as I cannot too often stress, to my wrongs, when it comes to my shames, it gestures and jokes and toys with chronology like a prestidigitator in the hope of distracting me from them.

However, I confess my hope that I will be innocent again, not with a pristine, accidental innocence, but rather with an innocence achieved by the slow cutting away of the flesh to reach the bone.

I still have the dress, and I hope to give it to the Smithsonian Institution as a memento, or, as I more fondly hope, to present it to a museum containing articles showing the daily lives of the Presidents -- if I can get it organized.

but this -- yes, terrible step I am about to take is lightened with an inundating joy by the new-found hope that here, in these poems, is treasure -- or at least some measure of beauty, which I did not know of ''.

Harcourt replied: `` I do really hope you can achieve serenity in the course of time.

The reason is, I think, my awareness that my remarks last quarter on pacifism may well have served to confirm the opinion of some that my tendency to skepticism and dissent gets us nowhere, and that I am simply too old to hope.

She asked if I had other advice and, heady with success, I rushed it in, I hope not too late.

`` I mean, we don't have any way to get there and we can't expect you to quit work just to take us to town ''.

I just can't take any chances on getting her pregnant, and if we were sleeping together ''

As I dug in behind one of the bales we were using as protection, I grudgingly found myself agreeing with Oso's logic, especially when I imagined what would have happened to Missy if Old Knife's large party of screeching warriors had overrun our company.

Don't like to bother no one unless we have to, which I figger we do, in your case.

I found a trooper once the Apache had spread-eagled on an ant hill, and another time we ran across some teamsters they'd caught, tied upside down on their own wagon wheels over little fires until their brains was exploded right out o' their skulls.

It was a disturbingly familiar face, too, but I couldn't remember where we had met.

I said, `` Do we know each other, Miss ''??

Haven't we haven't I seen you.

I had seen two of them and we would soon be in another city-wide, joyous celebration with romance in the air ; ;

I was aware that when our eyes met we both quickly averted them.

Something clicked in this instance, but I treated her circumspectly and I felt that she knew it, for we both kept our distance.

I dismissed these feelings as wishful thinking but I could not get it out of my head that we had a strong physical attraction for one another and we both feared to dwell on it because of our relationship.

`` I guess we both felt it ''.

`` I know what we can do '', I said.

I think I have a way so we can carry on without his suspecting us ''.